One thing I find myself struggling with is making connections, or at least meaningful ones. Throughout my life I’ve had countless caregivers come and go. So many I honestly don’t remember them all. More people have probably seen me naked than a Tuesday stripper. Sure, I have a handful of long term care givers. I still feel like it’s more of a job than a friendship though. In the past I probably put in more effort making a personal connection, but since it’s most likely temporary I find it not worth the effort these days. It’s not that I have anything against making connections, it’s just a lot of energy for not a lot of return.
Case in point, I have another new nurse. To be honest I already forgot her name. Nicole maybe? No, that doesn’t sound right. Anyway, I got the vibe this isn’t her dream job. I’m guessing her time with the agency will be short lived. While she’s here I answer the list of questions regarding my last bowel movement, pain levels and attest I haven’t fallen. Keeping it friendly I engage in small talk, but I really don’t care what brought her to the area. I just don’t want to brave the elements for my depo injection.
Same story with the wheelchair guy. Finally I got someone scheduled to make some adjustments. Of course I’ve never seen him before, so have to explain my issues from scratch, again. In the end I still have the same armrests I HATE, still don’t like my joystick mount and don’t like how it drives. At least we made a few adjustments. He went back with a list of things to check on. It’ll be interesting to see what transpires. It’ll be more interesting to see who I hear from. Most likely I’ll have to contact them and start from scratch yet again.
Do you find it easy to make connections? Is it worth the effort?