I’ve had a Spinraza consultation set up for a few months now, and was able to squeeze in a neurological evaluation during the appointment. The CT scan of my sinuses came back clean, and the ENT specialist suggested I see a neurologist about a specific kind of migraine that comes with vertigo, so I’m lucky I was able to see someone so quickly.
I was dreading the appointment from the moment we called about the neurological evaluation. I had a feeling I wouldn’t get an answer, but I held out hope till the very last second that she would listen to my laundry list of symptoms and say, “Oh, yeah, you definitely have migraines, that’s a textbook case right there.”
I’ve spent the past 10 months in doctors’ offices trying and failing to figure out what is actually going on with my head. I don’t need a cure — which probably doesn’t exist anyway — but I do need an answer.
Of course, I didn’t get one.
She thinks I have tension headaches. Migraines are more intense, apparently, and are usually associated with nausea or vomiting and vision problems, neither of which I experience.
Given that my headaches are more of a low, constant pressure than sharp spikes of pain, it makes sense. But migraines also made sense, as did sinusitis. Still, tension headaches are common, and become more likely with muscle tension — check — and anxiety — double check. So, I’m trying to rest in the fact that I maybe sort of kind of have a probable answer.
My PCA wasn’t able to take me to the appointment, so my dad tagged along. He knows how anxious I’ve been about this, so once the doctor left the room, he asked me how I felt. It took me a while to answer because I honestly didn’t know. After waiting so long for what was ultimately a nonanswer, but an answer-adjacent, I was disappointed.
But I felt better than I have in months, largely because the doctor looked me in the eye and told me that none of my symptoms concerned her, which is something I needed to hear. I’ve been going to Gillette Lifetime Specialty Healthcare my entire life, and I trust the doctors there.
It also helped that the neurologist was familiar with SMA. I felt listened to. And, for the first time in nearly a year, I actually took what the doctor had to say at face value.
Long story short, I’m trying several different remedies for my headaches, including increasing my water intake, aromatherapy, vitamin supplements, and even massage. I wouldn’t say I’m optimistic, but compared to how I felt last week, I’m hopeful. Time to start charting my daily pain levels and — hopefully — get back to living my life.
I also discussed Spinraza with the neurologist. She had an hour-long spiel for us, complete with PowerPoint, and while I found the information interesting, nothing convinced me to start the process yet.
I completely understand why other people in the community have gone forward with it, and all the progress they’ve seen makes me incredibly happy. But I just don’t think I’m ready yet. I could blame it on my medical anxiety and probably be correct, but there’s also a skeptic in me that wants to see more studies before I have a needle shoved between my vertebrae or, worse, undergo surgery.
So, Spinraza is on hold — at least for now. I have a new school year to prepare for, and a book to write, and chronic pain to live with. After the craziness of the past year, I’m ready to sit down with my body and get things sorted out, preferably without an implanted reservoir.
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