Lately I feel a lot of discontent. Probably most of it has to do with the current situation. Not only have I been in “hibernation” since November, I have to weigh the risk of every action. Also, some of it has to do with my physical limitations. There are so many things that I would do if I could. Despite those feelings I’m trying to look past what I can’t do, focus on what I can and learn to be content with where I’m at.
Over the 4th so many friends and family members had gatherings. I don’t feel comfortable with this so didn’t partake. Mom and I did decide to take a risk though going to small shop and an outdoor greenhouse, wearing our masks of course. Thankfully it wasn’t busy, most of the people in the shop also had masks and I kept my distance. We enjoyed watching random fireworks and the fireflies from the comfort of Mom’s porch. Someone across the lake puts on quite a show. Not the conventional 4th of July celebration, but we made the best of it.
My backyard is my sanctuary. If I could weed the flowers and water my plants they would be so much happier. Luckily my caregivers know how important my space is, so they help where they can. Still, I have to look past the random weeds and wilted plants that didn’t get enough water. At least there’s not snow on the ground right?
Even though I know I’ll never be able to do everything I want to on my own, I keep moving forward. Some steps I’m taking in the long run will help me maintain my independence. I’ve started the process for a new wheelchair. Officially I’m on the waiting list for a successor service dog. Not only that I’m checking into a JACO. After a lot of debate I decided these would all be complimentary. Will it work out? I don’t know yet, but I’ll keep you posted. In the meantime I can try to be content knowing I’m doing what I can to lead my best life.
What things do you do to feel content?